University applications are intensely self-torturous. There's all these dark recesses of the human spirit that you’ve to dig into and explore in order to write the 'personal statement'. What more, once you've discovered the creeping shadows on the walls of your skull, you've to overcome the dilemma of revealing them.
Then I sound horribly egoistic and fake when I write almost every essay about what the 'I' had done, will want to do and is doing. I don't even know who is this personality I'm substituting myself with - someone made to sound very successful, confident and ambitious. I lack every one of those elements, except maybe success.
I think living is a success. And understanding that I’m alive, that I’ve a certain limited amount of free will and self-determinism, knowing that I don’t have to rely on a God for purpose and morals is a daily success for me. The best part of all this is knowing and being aware of how my views change...
College essays. I'm never quite comfortable with them.
Then I sound horribly egoistic and fake when I write almost every essay about what the 'I' had done, will want to do and is doing. I don't even know who is this personality I'm substituting myself with - someone made to sound very successful, confident and ambitious. I lack every one of those elements, except maybe success.
I think living is a success. And understanding that I’m alive, that I’ve a certain limited amount of free will and self-determinism, knowing that I don’t have to rely on a God for purpose and morals is a daily success for me. The best part of all this is knowing and being aware of how my views change...
College essays. I'm never quite comfortable with them.
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